We’ve seen (or slept through) a Supermoon Lunar Eclipse – the last time we saw that was in 1982, the year of Miners strikes, 3 million unemployed and the Falklands war. The next time we’ll see a Supermoon Lunar Eclipse will be in 2033, and for all we know Kanye West may be President of the United States, we may have started living on Mars and the mullet might have come back into fashion.
But what about this Supermoon Lunar Eclipse, this week – what’s that been about? Supermoons and Lunar Eclipses can be seen as times of high emotion, times to let go of the old, so we can make space to usher in the new. I’m not sure it’s felt exactly like that for me. Although, this week has definitely felt a like a turning point of sorts, albeit a very small one. If you were looking at your SatNav it wouldn’t even be a turn, maybe just a gentle dip or curve.
Nothing has happened to make me feel that way, except maybe the slightly momentous (for me) fixing of my leaky shower and leaky bathroom taps. The shower has stood unused and unloved for two years, but I suddenly found I couldn’t live with it like that any longer. And after two years of not working, it’s only taken two days to tear out the old broken fittings, and put in shiny new ones.
Apart from the shiny new shower, nothing has changed. I haven’t suddenly won the lottery, I haven’t been given a three-book deal, and I haven’t met Mr Right (or even Mr Alright for Now). I’ve been doing what I’ve done for the last two months. I go to work, I come home, on rare occasions I see friends, I cry when I think about Simba, which is almost all the time and I still miss him, more than I will ever be able to explain.
And the insomnia, which was pretty bad before, has shifted up a gear. If I get more than four hours it’s a reason to celebrate. Coffee has become my new best friend. So there have been no visible improvements in my life.
Despite this, and for no reason in particular, I feel lighter, more hopeful, and…well, happier, than I have for a very long time.
So at this Lunar Eclipse I am very glad to be letting go of the leaky old shower, and letting go of some of the heaviness I’ve been living with. And with a slightly lighter heart, I’m ready to embrace change, whatever form that change comes in. I’m not going to waste any more time looking for the reasons why I feel more optimistic, I’m just going to enjoy that feeling.